"Melville, as he always does, began to reason of Providence and futurity, and of everything that lies beyond human ken, and informed me that he “pretty much made up his mind to be annihilated”; but still he does not seem to rest in that anticipation; and, I think, will never rest until he gets hold of a definite belief.
It is strange how he persists — and has persisted ever since I knew him, and probably long before — in wandering to-and-fro over these deserts, as dismal and monotonous as the sand hills amid which we were sitting. He can neither believe, nor be comfortable in his unbelief; and he is too honest and courageous not to try to do one or the other.
If he were a religious man, he would be one of the most truly religious and reverential; he has a very high and noble nature, and better worth immortality than most of us."
N. Hawthorne // 11.20.1856
Damn don't that Hawthorne sing.
This is a record about the cold permanence of loss; the endless and expanding empty universe; the creeping horror of 35. It's also a record about hope and grace and remembering and bodily joy and dogs and liquor and dark forests and singing loudly. Go wild.
released October 31, 2019
By Chris Kiehne.
With Sonya Cotton.
GKG is for Lauren, Bones, and Cricket, with much gratitude.