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We Kept Going
03:50
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Good god.
Ain't it a mystery I even met you, baby?
If you consider every part of it, it could have gone so different.
You had this tragic elegance...
Lord, you were the sweetest thing,
I was permanently seventeen and in love with suffering.
Years we spent lost
Each wandering our own unlit corridor
Hands on the wall
That passage was long
But we kept going
Good god. Ain't it the strangest thing?
We sure ain't kids no more.
But ain't we done alright?
Ain't we still got time?
We sing our blessings every night
Wake up in the morning
Try to do some kind of honest work
Try to earn this
God god. Ain't it a blessed thing?
There's a cold wind blowing.
The cardinal coloring the canopy...
It's that old spirit showing, baby.
I never thought we'd live to see the summer end.
I never really thought we'd get this far.
I guess - if you consider every part of it - it's a wonder that we're here at all.
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Some Wonder
03:57
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From our place down there in the valley
We saw a movement in the hills.
Then we saw it was the hill itself.
What horror! Oh, what a thrill!
So we emptied every bottle
Like it was ceremonial
We burnt our tabernacle to the ground
We let it go
We’d spent all summer waiting for the miracle to come
For the grace of some gentle god…
Don’t that seem dumb now?
Just a bunch of stupid kids, all begging to be weighed and judged,
‘cos we thought that we knew the judge.
But we were wrong.
Lordy, were we ever wrong.
In those hungry months that followed,
I lugged my meanness everywhere.
I burnt my robe, I broke my staff, I cut off all of my hair.
I lost what faith I had known in my younger days.
I didn’t trust Van Morrison.
I didn’t want no human fellowship.
I didn’t love a goddamn thing.
But then you spit a little blood for a couple of months…
You gonna learn you some humility.
You’re gonna reconnect with the wildness of the country.
You’re gonna learn your debt,
and start to see that even solitary things need rest,
and often lean against each other.
So get a dog, man. Take a lover.
Baby, when you met me
I was an undecided thing
Somewhere between the man I was
And the man I thought that I could be.
I’ve known some failure, and a few small victories,
but - hand to god, baby - when I first saw you, I knelt down willingly.
No, there ain’t no final purpose,
And there ain’t no destiny.
It’s just timing and a little luck.
And ain’t that some wonder?
So, we won’t make plans on how its gonna end,
And we won’t make promises.
We’ll just lean into the work and we’ll keep going
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Poughkeepsie
05:55
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Weren’t they holy: all the wounds that we wore?
Just a couple of kids in the world.
Stoned and stubborn and stupid and bored.
We had no idea how blessed we were.
We just had no idea how blessed we were.
Weren’t we righteous? Weren’t we good with the lord?
Just a couple of kids wild with lust for the world.
Weren’t our bodies sunburnt and firm?
Didn’t we push em together with a dreadful force?
Wasn’t that what we had em for?
Babe, wasn’t we righteous? Weren’t we good with the lord?
Weren’t we mighty? Weren’t we brave? Weren’t we bold?
Weren’t we the best fuckin’ band on the Green Metro North?
Skipping practice and doing lines off the dorm room floor.
Weren’t we something to behold?
Baby wasn’t we mighty? Weren’t we brave? Weren’t we bold?
Weren’t we hopeful? Weren’t we green, weren’t we young?
Didn’t we honestly think that we were bound by our love?
We thought we’d change this world, but the world changed us.
God knows how distant we’ll become.
But weren’t we something when we were young?
Ain’t they holy: all the wounds that we wore
Just a couple of kids knelt in fear of the world
Always fighting our separate wars
Who can even remember what we fought them for?
Who can even remember what we were fighting for?
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Karen's Blues #2
03:23
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I stood in front of mirrors, baby, and I spoke your name
Then I stood upon the mountain top, and, there, I did the same
In darkened rooms I sang the sacred words and felt ashamed
'Cos they meant nothing to me, honey. It was empty medicine.
I would burn a dozen altars, I would sing all the psalms all backwards
If I thought that would draw a spark.
Karen: in your life, you answered every call
I have wrecked my skeptic’s heart
Wondering where you are
In the year before you died, I kept insisting that I’d visit
But of course that was a lie, and I just knelt to my laziness
In my own way I have tried to draft some reckoning of this
The only the things I’m haunted by are all those chances that I missed
A Sunday drive to say goodbye,
Then an evening in the country
I mean, what cause did I have to stall?
I wasn’t in denial, I wasn’t frightened at all
I have taxed my selfish heart
Wondering at the cost
In my time, I too will lie in some hospital bed
Balancing the line between the wrestle and the rest
In that moment will I have any fellowship left
Or will I stand before the darkness alone and unmet
'Cos I might sing about the spirit,
I might sing about the soul.
But it’s only ritual.
A way to render meaning when I know there is none
I have wrecked my stupid heart
Wondering what becomes of us
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There ain't no beacon lit upon that shore
There's no signal fire for us to burn
There's no red dress waving in that slamming screen door
No, we don't live here anymore
We built this whole haunted mess ourselves
That old sleeping giant? He ain't concerned with us.
We ain't had no devil in here riding shotgun.
But we got that wilderness in our blood.
Baby, when you met me, I was living scared.
I was always braiding fennel wreaths and running up the cellar stairs.
I was so in love with my despair, that I almost missed you,
Standing there,
A cardinal feather in your long black hair...
Hell no, baby.
I ain't going anywhere.
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Renfield
02:32
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I ain’t no true believer
I’ve got a grim and faithless heart
Nine years old in my bone-white robe
My spirit lit up like a catacomb
All the other kids were screaming their Hosanna!
As if I doubted you alone
I would have been your witness, baby
I could have been your red right hand
You need somebody to behold your terror?
Well, here I am, Lord. Here I am.
I ain’t no true believer
I’ve got a grim and foolish heart
In my time I was that kind of man
That called himself a haunted man
Just ‘cos it seemed to get me into any bed I wanted to get in
But I could be your great love, baby.
I could be the bedlam on the mount.
You need somebody to behold your glory?
Call my name, babe. I’m around.
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If You Should Mourn
03:52
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Look out on the water, baby
If you should mourn this loss
Remember it for what it was
And for all that it was not
Look out upon the water, baby
It’s running clear and calm
It’s here and gone
It’s the same water that we crawled out from
Wild and young
With yet no concern for Abaddon
Stubborn and dumb
Our burnt bodies baking in the sun
In some ways we’ve been lucky
In others, not so much
Look out upon the water, baby
If you should fear the light is gone
That water don’t care if you kneel or not
Fog rolls down off the mountaintop
Carries the cold and surrounds us
Both of us want to believe it’s the breath of some old god…
But it’s just fog fell down from the mountaintop
Look out on the water, baby
If you should miss me when I’m gone
Remember me the man that I was
And the man that I was not
I had that real cool mean spirit, baby
I was a selfish little fuck
But I loved what things I loved.
And, ah baby. I loved you.
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Cults of Abaddon
03:52
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There was blood striped across my face
Blood striped the moon
Blood hung down in ropes from my family blade
And filled the saloon
The bartenders sang calamity
And the gravediggers swooned
That was any given Tuesday night in my life...
But then I met you
And I cut off my long brown blood-slicked hair
I sutured my wounds
I left that cheap shit sitting down there on that bottom shelf
And I stopped running right at my blues
I opened the windows of the house
I unlocked every room
And, in the morning, that old sun came up
As it's been known to
We ain't gonna save this wretched world from the Cults of Abaddon
We ain't gonna save our hangdog souls, baby
We can't undo what things we've done
But, come on, kid. We've still got lives to live.
And, yeah, we might be dying.
But we ain't dead yet.
The wolf knelt before the hearth
And the cereus bloomed
Every empty bottle filled back up
When you walked in the room
The light fell across my heart
Light filled the tomb
And the kingdoms of the dead despaired
On the day that I met you
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I'm a child of god
I got six friends and a dog
And a woman that I love
We got 97 beers left in a cooler in the trunk
We work hard, we have fun, is that really so far wrong?
I mean what would you have done?
Not laughed, or run, or fucked?
Not lit a fire, or sat and watched the stars above us fall?
No. There's no "deserving" here at all.
Ain't u a child of god?
Ain't we built from the same stuff?
Ain't we both just bones and guts?
Or am I something that you want?
Am I expected to repent?
Am I supposed to feel ashamed?
Cos I would do it all again.
There's not one moment I would change.
There's nothing I regret.
I'm still in love with everything.
I'm so in love with everything
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